As previously mentioned- my absence and the long story that goes with it. I'll fill you in.
Its really not a very long story afterall....its quite a classic tale of the one who looks seemingly forEver to find a job, finds job, throws herself headfirst into her job and then ends up entirely in over her head and miserable in said job. You know that story. And for the first time in my working life (and being that I am almost 40 and this is the first time I have felt this, I consider myself blessed) I have been in a situation that I just felt that the heart & soul I put into the job was just not worth the stress & unhappiness that was coming with it.
But I stuck with it. Why? First of all because I am not a quitter and I am ever hopeful, I really thought I could turn this around and make this most of the job and the opportunity that could possibly come from it. And lets be honest-quitting a decent paying job in this economy with 1 son in college, 1 son in high school & a hubby VERY VERY near retirement from his military career, is NOT the wisest of choices. My family told me to quit. My husband told me to quit after the 1st time I came home in tears and full on snufflelump snorts. (God Bless him!) My friends told me to let it go. Even a co-worker commented that she didn't know how I put up with what I did and said she would have split if it were her....Yet, I didn't quit. Glutton for punishment- who me? So one morning while I browsed the internet for some kind of inspiration to lift me away from this situation...I found this lovely quote from Coco Chanel....
"Don't spend time beating on a wall hoping to transform it into a door"
...and it spoke so very loudly to me. So I did what I needed to do...I told everyone I knew I was looking for a new job. Why that? ...because we all know, in today's world it Is who you know, and I have some amazing friends who know Lots of people. I got quite a bit of feedback(love my Sav friends!) , but I really didn't jump on any leads until one...from one my most wonderful sources of inspiration and.......I got the job!!!! I have tried to be very even keel about it, but I will let you know, I.Am. Stoked. I am Not looking forward to the longer commute (40 min as opposed to 8) but I immediately fell in love with the job and most importantly, the warm feeling I got from my co-workers to be. It was refreshing. I am looking forward to be in a role that I can support and be supportive. I am feeling very blessed!
Giving my notice was hard simply because I know I leave my current place in a huge lurch and I honestly care for them. But it felt so good to give that notice, this has been weighing on my mind for 4- 5 months. I have been praying for the right thing to happen for me and I feel it is happening, now my prayers are that they find the right person for the job. I feel confident there is someone out there who would fill this role perfectly. It was hard for me to let it go for alot of reasons, none of which really have to do with money, to be honest, I feel defeated in some ways, it really was too for me to handle....but...I learned so much about myself from this job and I am coming out feeling pretty darn strong...and that is a great feeling. I feel so very much at peace. I have done the right thing for my sanity and for my family. Phew..that was 14 months of Interestin ;) So there you have the where I have been! I fully expect to be busy in my new role, but there is no way it can be as mentally & emotionally exhausting as my previous job. And I welcome my new challenges and look forward to growing in this role.
And since I just cannot have a blog post without sharing a photo...back to doors! ( I could have taken a picture of my fav Coco Channel parfume..but I don't have any! I am currently in Love with Tocca Brigitte- its 1 of my favorite things!...link below!) So doors it is!
Savannah has some Beautiful doors and you should know, I have no qualms about snapping pictures of people's front doors, especially at Christmastime. This simply beautiful set of classic red doors belongs to the Lutheran Church of the Ascension. Which is such a beautiful church on the inside as well, if you are even in The SAV check it out! Their Christmas door decor is simple, pure & just lovely. And of course it has a meaning....2 doors...2 openings...more on That later ;)
Have a wonderful week!
Blessings to you all!
Tocca Brigitte Parfume